It is eleven fourteen in the late evening, I am sitting by the window that look out on the neighbour houses in my study room. The rain has just stopped. It is breezy and cold, silence reigns everywhere. I know it's time to get myself rest and hit the bed. but I have a million thoughts running through my mind, reminiscing all the old stuff, old friends, and old people i have ever known so well. At this moment, i wish i could write a letter to you all. There's thousand words in my heart that i wanted to tell you guys long ago.
My dear friends,
Over the years, i threw away every mail and message from you guys just because of no reason. I didn't know what exactly happened to me, but there's something i really want to say - I am sorry.
The years after graduation hardened me into someone quite different from the guy you'd once known so well. I still remembered the day i left the campus headed back to my hometown, ready to offer the world my talent. The world I discovered, was not all that interested. Paying rent, loans, family, love, and all the stuff that I thought I could easily control seemed to be out of my hand. I wondered why the light were not turning green to me at all. I was failing again for my life, just like a useless tramp dragging his heavy burden, wandering around the street. Tears dripping down my cheeks.
My dear friends, I miss you guys so much. I bury myself into work. I squeeze in every single moment that would bring me sadness. Thousand miles away, sometimes I wish you guys were here just beside me, hugging me for every disappointment and setback that I faced, especially when I was losing myself to handle a messy breakup with someone I've ever love so much. Did the world forget me? I don know. How i wish you guys were with me at that moment when I cried, searching for my breath.
My dear friends, for all the time we had spent together, for all the kindness and patience you had had shown me, please forgive me.
My dear friends,
Over the years, i threw away every mail and message from you guys just because of no reason. I didn't know what exactly happened to me, but there's something i really want to say - I am sorry.
The years after graduation hardened me into someone quite different from the guy you'd once known so well. I still remembered the day i left the campus headed back to my hometown, ready to offer the world my talent. The world I discovered, was not all that interested. Paying rent, loans, family, love, and all the stuff that I thought I could easily control seemed to be out of my hand. I wondered why the light were not turning green to me at all. I was failing again for my life, just like a useless tramp dragging his heavy burden, wandering around the street. Tears dripping down my cheeks.
My dear friends, I miss you guys so much. I bury myself into work. I squeeze in every single moment that would bring me sadness. Thousand miles away, sometimes I wish you guys were here just beside me, hugging me for every disappointment and setback that I faced, especially when I was losing myself to handle a messy breakup with someone I've ever love so much. Did the world forget me? I don know. How i wish you guys were with me at that moment when I cried, searching for my breath.
My dear friends, for all the time we had spent together, for all the kindness and patience you had had shown me, please forgive me.
