New Day!

Well it's a new day!!!!

The world is filled with unlikely friendships. How did they begin, with one person desperately in need and another willing to lend a helping hand. When such kindness is offered, we are finally able to see the worth of those we have previously written off, and before we've known it, a bond has formed, regardless of whether others can understand it. Yes, unlikely friendships start up everyday, no one understands this more than the lonely, in fact, it's what they count on.

My friend!!! Stay in touch. Never let me down. I miss you all.

My dear friends.

It is eleven fourteen in the late evening, I am sitting by the window that look out on the neighbour houses in my study room. The rain has just stopped. It is breezy and cold, silence reigns everywhere. I know it's time to get myself rest and hit the bed. but I have a million thoughts running through my mind, reminiscing all the old stuff, old friends, and old people i have ever known so well. At this moment, i wish i could write a letter to you all. There's thousand words in my heart that i wanted to tell you guys long ago.

My dear friends,

Over the years, i threw away every mail and message from you guys just because of no reason. I didn't know what exactly happened to me, but there's something i really want to say - I am sorry.
The years after graduation hardened me into someone quite different from the guy you'd once known so well. I still remembered the day i left the campus headed back to my hometown, ready to offer the world my talent. The world I discovered, was not all that interested. Paying rent, loans, family, love, and all the stuff that I thought I could easily control seemed to be out of my hand. I wondered why the light were not turning green to me at all. I was failing again for my life, just like a useless tramp dragging his heavy burden, wandering around the street. Tears dripping down my cheeks.
My dear friends, I miss you guys so much. I bury myself into work. I squeeze in every single moment that would bring me sadness. Thousand miles away, sometimes I wish you guys were here just beside me, hugging me for every disappointment and setback that I faced, especially when I was losing myself to handle a messy breakup with someone I've ever love so much. Did the world forget me? I don know. How i wish you guys were with me at that moment when I cried, searching for my breath.
My dear friends, for all the time we had spent together, for all the kindness and patience you had had shown me, please forgive me.

我听寂寞在唱歌

朋友都问起我，为何你的部落格里只有爱情与爱情之间的事。我突然才想起，原来我都是一个人过着生活，一个人在游荡。原来我是多么的渴望另一个人融入我的生活。啊。。就如 我所说，如果你你问我，LRT 与地下铁的故事我喜欢哪个，我还是喜欢前者，曾经我在哪里和寂寞相遇过，掠过的一幕幕往事，在唱寂寞的歌。

给朋友的一封信

今天突然很想在这个四方格里留言给自己。生命如此短暂，我何时才能做真正的自己，周游列国，再也不必为琐碎的事情而烦。生命就是如此；人总要见过世面才会知道自己渺小，才懂得自己需要什么。

摩理说：

So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Well i can only say:

Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. A tension of the opposite, our life is just like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.

So, friends, why we want to count too much on friend？ Why we want to bear any grudge against each other? Never think that you are the kindest And Don ever assume that you are the weakest. Please, you know. You know, sometimes we are living in the same community, but we are staying in a different society. So the cultures we bridge might probably different from what you are thinking and what you are building and even where you have been originating. Why we all want to mess up everything? Come on live in peaceful and harmony. Of course the culture we have sometimes does not make people feel good about themselves. Somehow i have to tell you that if the culture doesn't work for me, I won't buy it.

单身

不管未来会变得怎么样，我还是比较适合单身。每个人一生当中，无论你如何真心付出，有些人就注定了是你生命中的过客。感情就像唱着喜欢的歌一样，淡了，也就忘了。

寂寞的圣诞

推开门的时候，手里还拿着一根烟。终於离开了那个拥挤又热闹的地方。他们都陪我倒数，期待着圣诞的来临。酒吧里的人快乐的叫嚷着。只是快乐的，拥抱的都不属於我。

坐上了车子，从impi road驶到 pj, 从pj 到kepong 再到minharja 到 cheras. 反反复复。心情也跟着反反复复。

一路上，call了伟，聊起了彼此庆祝圣诞的节目。问候了，也挂了。终於在lost world停了下来。寄了个信息给他。告诉他，刚刚电话里头快乐的气息，只不过是在欺骗他。今晚，我一个人过。只是因为太过寂寞，不知该如何说。

眼泪从眼角流下，我对自己说，没事的，再过一两小时就能挨过去。

让每个人心碎

喜欢KL的生活， 因为它参杂了寂寞的味道。坐在拥挤的咖啡馆，人们却听着寂寞的歌。

总觉得自己是理性的人，总是在一旁静静看着别人痛，看着他们为爱伤透了心，却忘了自己也曾爱过，也曾痛过，只不过是早结束了而已。

有点害怕再提感情了，不是可以拿感情消遣的人，也曾做过错误的事情，所以，再不敢轻易地触碰爱情了。

我似乎不会再去相信那些什么天长地久，长距离的爱情。理智却有时让我觉得痛苦， 错过了什么的。

想要的不多，只是想按自己的脚步，努力获得自己想要的生活，有自由，有幸福，足矣！
　　　　　　　　　　　　　
其实有爱的感觉很好，因为没爱的日子，麻木的空洞，就象在没有音乐的时候跳舞，苍白的更显无力！

最好的是，不要伤人，也不要被伤。 爱情的事，随缘吧！因为爱人不一定快乐， 除非他也爱你： 被爱不一定幸福， 除非你也爱他。

最真的梦，是面对现实，天空依然不停的飘落雨点，依稀看见，那段感情慢慢漂远……